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[25 Aug 2005|10:00pm]
[ mood | thankful ]

No one reads this journal and it has been FOREVER since I updated. I have a new site www.xanga.com/sthrnbelle8806.html. If anyone does read this Wesley has had a bone marrow transplant that failed and he now is home doing better than the doctors expected. This however does not mean that he is cured he still has Leukemia. It is my senior year and I look forward to many new chalenges. This will be my last update on Livejournal and I am now going to type only on Xanga. Thanks to all that read this when it was my only life line.

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WESLEY HAS A TRANSPLANT DATE!!!!!!!! [03 Jun 2005|12:49pm]
[ mood | Don't ask y i am pissed off!! ]

Hey everyone it has been a while since I updated. I have been Houston with my baby boy. He is doing fabulous. WE HAVE A BONE MARROW TRANSPLANT DATE JUNE 9TH!! Evryone please pray! Well let me tell you about my trip to Texas. I got there Friday and got to see my boy first off when we went to Clinic to pick him up. I was so excited! We left clinic and went to eat at Luby's (great southern cooking even for Texas). The next day I went to clinic with him and we were only there from noon to bout 7. Then we went to Olive Garden for some grub. Then we went back to RMH (Ronald McDonald House) to crash. The next day was a very long day. We started at 9 am and didn't leave till around 8 or 9 that night. We went back to RMH and Michael had grilled up some grub and Wesley got a well deserved chance to talk with his siter Amber (the greatest) and I got a chance to play with her son Addison (sweetest baby ever)!the next day was jus like the others clinic then out with the family. The last day was the day of wesley's catheter replacement, or so we thought. Once he got it the docs realized it was in the wrong place. That's right WHAT IDIOTS!!! Anyways I am sick of typing so if you wanna know more call me. You should know the number or eamil me at frogolicious1329@hotmail.com. BYE BYE!!!

We'll never fall apart

[17 May 2005|08:37pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Ok I keep having huge gaps in between my updates. I haven't been able to update because I have been very very sick. They don't know what is wrong. Anyways enough about me here's an update on Wesley. He is doing ok. His spirits and his faith is stronger than ever. He has undergone more rounds of chemo and this time the cancer seems to be responding. He is looking right now at a bone marrow transplant sometime around June the 6th if everything goes according to plan. I am hoping to get out there to see him real soon. Now for the the crappy and not so crappy parts of my life right now. Well as everyone knows me and Joey were together for 6 months. We broke up the other day after he brought his ex to my work and to Home Depot while we were dating. BIG SURPRISE IT'S MY FAULT AS USUAL!!! Hey Joey, Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me. I fell for it once and I got out before the same thing happend again. OK enough about the bad now for the good. I have once again am a very happy person. Me and a very special person are once again becoming very close. If it was up to me we would be dating right now. I know it is sudden but even through the Joey days I wanted nothing more than to be with him. I guess everyone knows who he is. If you have been living in a closet for the last 2 years his name is Wesley. Yes Wesley, the same one I mentioned at the top of this update. The greatest and sweetest guy ever. He is the only guy that has ever called me jus to tell me he loves me. Joey didn't call me at all. Wesley jus makes my day brighter and is always there for me even through the tough times. I feel like we have gotten closer since he got sick. It makes me happy to know that when he gets home that maybe we can give us another shot ( who knows maybe even before he gets home ). Ok well I guess I have written enough but no one reads this anymore cause I can't update everyday. Go visit Wesley's website: Caringbridge.org/al/wesleysjourney.

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I'm Back!!! [02 May 2005|09:07pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Well Howdy!
It seems like forever ago that I wrote in this thing. No one reads so i figure why waste my time. Wes and I have become really close in the couple of weeks. That is my Bubba and I don't care what you think!! Everyday I miss him more and more! He is doing better a little sick but nothing like he was there for a while. Please continue to pray for him. He needs white blood cells and platelets...... SO if you are in the Houston area PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE try to find out what you can do and if you can donate. Anyways on another subject. Went to the greatest concert ever Saturday. My Summer Tragedy, Young B and Little G, And Out of Eden. They rocked out loud. Anyways I am sick of typing so Bye!!!

We'll never fall apart

My Weekend! [10 Apr 2005|08:36pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

Well let me update you on everything in my life right now (not that anyone reads this anyways). Got a beautiful ring from the greatest guy on earth. I Love You so much Joey!! Yall should see it. It's gold and heart shaped with a diamond in the middle. Also Wes seems to be in good spirits still and is still making fun of me. OMG you have to go see the hillarious pics on his webpage. Here's the link http://wesleydunchof.fotopic.net/. There are some FUNNY ones. Anyways lets see what I did this weekend. Friday - Went to school, Joey picked me up round 6, went out to eat, he gave me the ring, went to Chanci's and Rewired to show off, went to Home Depot to see "the boys", and went home and crashed. Saturday - Got up at 7 and went to take ACT, left and went home for like 2 seconds, went to Joey's, went to work at 6, got off at 10, and came home and crashed. Sunday - Got up at 6:30 and went to church at 8:30, left and came home after church service, went to work at 11, worked till 4 (supposed to get off at 3), came home for a few minutes, went to Joey's house, jus got and am crashing. Well that's my weekend!

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I Love Joey!!! [05 Apr 2005|08:17pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Well it has been a while since I wrote. Alot has gone on and I am hear to share. Well good news from Texas Wesley's labs have gotten better and the chemo treatment that the docs figured would have no effect is working as well as the strong doses were. My life has gotten better too. Joey has made me one of the happiest people in the world. He seems to know jus what to say to make me laugh when I am having a bad day. We went to the SGA dance and had a blast even thought the dancing was wierd. I feel so important because I get to be on his arm at the ROTC ball on April 29th. School has been ok and work is still stupid. I have started playing softball for my church. It is SOOOOOO much fun. If it were up to me I would play travel ball, but as usual I have to work. (BLAH!!!) Well I guess that's about it. Yea I know boring life but you aren't always around now are you. LOL!!! BYE BYE!!!

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I'm Home!!!! [28 Mar 2005|10:25pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Hey all I have finally returned from Houston. Seems like I have been there longer than I have beem at home. OH WAIT I HAVE!!! In a few days I will have pics but let me jus tell you a lil' bout my trip.Ok well we arrived in Houston Friday and drove to the Crowne Plaza Hotel where we stayed for the 4 days. The 9 of us consisted of me, my boyfriend Joey, Wes's friend Mark, Wes's Uncles Ronnie, Steve, Charles, Aunts Carolyn and Evie, Wes's Step sister Christin, and her baby Mikayla. Once we got settled in the hotel me, Carolyn, and Evie went to help decorate for Wes's prom. Omg it was so wonderful. We danced and partied for what seems like forever. Then we went back to the hotel where we crashed. Saturday and Monday pretty much consisted of us doing what ever we wanted. If we weren't at the hospital we were either sleeping or shopping. Sunday however was an awesome day. It was Easter and I had the privillage to attend the largest church in the nations' Easted Celebration. Lakewood Baptist Church in Houston has about 30,000+ members a week. It has 4 church services on Sunday morning of 8,000 and each are full. So you can just imagine what there Easter service was to say the least the largest Christian celebration I have ever seen. The service was so big that it was held in Minute Maid stadium or better known as the home of the Houston Astros. The stadium was filled. Anyways that's about it. More happend but I am too tired to write about it. I will have pictures as soon as I can get them on disk. BYE!!!

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I'm Back [22 Mar 2005|09:21am]
[ mood | touched ]

Well I am back from seeing Wes in Houston. It was the most fun that I have had in a while. I missed him a bunch but once you get out there you get homesick very easily. I can;t imagine being out there for what is going on 6 weeks I think. I went to Joey's house yesterday after I got home. I missed him so much. I feel better to be home but I am ready to get up and go back out there to see him again. He got and walked alot while we were there so even though he was tired I know it did him good. Going across 5 states and back in 4 days is not fun, but to see Wes it was worth it. Joey has been such a support system. He is my rock right now and the only thing holding me together. Without him I don't know what I would do. When I got home yesterday he was outside waiting for me to pull up in his driveway. He came up and gave me the biggest hug ever and I felt so much better jus being wrapped in his arms. I brought him home some presents cause we stayed in 3 different states ( 1st Bay Saint Louis, Mississippi; 2nd Houston, Texas; last 4 blocks from Bourbon St. in New Orleans, Louisianna). I brought him some beads from Bourbon St. that I hope he liked cause it had the Navy, Army, and Air Force on them. Also I brought him a Big Dog shirt form Houston with poker playing dogs on the back. I brought Brittany a birthday present from Bourbon St., some squeaky duck beads. I hope they both enjoy them. But anyways being in Hoouston and staying in the Ronald McDonald House with Mrs. Angie (which is where they are staying for free when they aren't in the hospital) has really opened my eyes. I have learned just from this experience that I am a truely blessed person and that if you go to a place like this the people though all in the same boat when it comes to some sort of illness, they are like one huge family. I want to say hey to Tiffany Hayes, her son Parker, and the rest of the Hayes family. It was so nice to meet yall. If you didn't know Parker has become like Wes's little brother out there. Also I'd like to say HI to Anjuan (spelling??). These people made us feel so welcome though we were only there for one night. The nurses and doctors are so sweet and you can tell that they really love Wes (who couldn't love my big bro.)"Boss" (what the nurses call him) made sure that we got the full tour of everything and even sort of tracked us as we drove out there. It was so much fun. Thanks again to Mrs. Angie and Mr. Michael and especially Wes for allowing us to go out there and see them. It meant so much and was very reassuring. I love and miss all of yall and hope to see yal very soon.

We'll never fall apart

[18 Mar 2005|12:11am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well folks it is 12:11 a.m. and in exactly 9 hours I will be on my way to see Wes in Houston, Texas. I will be spending tomorrow night in Biloxi, Mississippi. The only real downside to this trip is that I have to be away from the love of my life for 4 days. I am gonna miss him something terrible. Well to update those who don't read Wes's livejournal, this last chemo treatment did not work. Now they will be administering a experimental drug to him that so far has an 85% success rate. I am prayin that this one will be the one. You know this is the time when your love for God and those around you is tested. I mean when I found out that Wes (the supposed love of my life) had lukemia I felt like my world was over. But God knew something that i didn't. He put Joey back into my life after 3 years of not speaking. I thoguht that I could never be in love again, but I was wrong. Wes's is my best friend in the world and he understands me and accepts me for who I am. Joey loves me and cares for me he's my best friend and the love I couldn't live without. If you ask me I got the best of both worlds. I got 2 best friend and two of the greatest guys in the entire world on my side. You know I didn't realize it but I am a lucky girl. Well I am really sleepy and I am gonna go bye bye!!!!!

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Life Sucks Sometimes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [14 Mar 2005|10:47pm]
[ mood | Please forgive me Joey!!! ]

Well as usual I screwed up again. I had heard my boyfriend was talkin to his ex again. I was hurt so I decided to get even with him, but I forgot one important thing, I didn't ask him what was going on before I jumped to conclusions. BIG MISTAKE! Well I went on my other journal on xanga.com and I said something I really regret (I said I like this guy that likes me but I don't like him)<----I know confusing. Anyways so I perpously put the link on my profile so he would go check it out. Well he did and it hurt him so bad. He doesn't know my true feelings for him. How I think he is the greatest thing to happen to me and how seeing him smile warms my heart and soul. You know people always say you will know when the right person comes along. Well to be honest I feel he is that person. I was so hung up on Wes for a long time and the love I had for Wes comes no where close the love I have for Joey. Joey is the most important thing in my life and to think that I messed that up breaks my heart like it has never been broken before. See I keep these feelings bottled inside me cause I dunno if he feels the same way. Right now I jus want him to sweep me up and hold me in his arms and tell me everything will be ok. But right now I don't think that is gonna happen for a while. I jus hope he can forgive me and I hope he knows that I Love Him so much!!!

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[12 Mar 2005|09:36am]
[ mood | I jus woke up so I feel grand! ]

Well as ususl there is nothing but drama and stupid junk going on at school. Who knew such a small town could be such a soap opera. Don't really wanna get into the whole story but let's jus say right noe going to school makes me fear for my life and I am not even one of the main ones in it. Well I haven't updated everyone on Wes lately and if you don't view his live journal (username:Angieandwes)then you don't know what is going on so here goes. He is out of the hospital last I heard and seems to me to be feeling alot better. As usual his spirits are high and he is trusting the Lord to guide him. He wants so desperately to come home and see everyone but knows that that is imposible right now so close to maybe a bonemarrow transplant. He has recieved the second dose of chemo and we are prayin every night and day that this puts him into remission. According to one of my sources (not sure how good a source but ya know) the docs have a new drug that has an 85% success rate that they are gonna use if this chemo doesn't work. I jus want him home. I don't really care how he gets here I jus want him here. I am dreamin of sein him "land" the plane in Dothan(yes I know scary thought). But anyways besides school everything is going good I seem to be stayin out of trouble these days. Only 1 week till my trip to Texas. I am so excited but even more excited cause only 2 more days till exams then SPRING BREAK!!! A well deserved one I might add. Well that's about it. BYE BYE!!

We'll never fall apart

[07 Mar 2005|10:23pm]
[ mood | loved ]

I LOVE JOEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!<<<<<<33333333

We'll never fall apart

[06 Mar 2005|02:02pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Well once again I am gonna start out talkin about how great Joey is. I can't help it! He is the best thing that has happend to me in a long time. Went bowling the other day with him, Jay, Asher, Phillip, and Tony. Had a blast. Those guys are crazy. Went to Joey's house for like 10 min. afterwards. Stood outside and picked on him (as usual). I now know why he is startin linebacker. We were playing around and I tried to tackle him and he turned around and pinned me to the Honda. It kinda hurt but it was really fun. He was so sweet about it though. You gotta Love someone who can make me laugh without even trying. Anyways I guess that's all.

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[04 Mar 2005|04:18pm]
[ mood | Loopy!!! ]

Well guys and gals it has been a while, but I am back now. Anyways to update you on my life. Well things with me and Joey are better than ever. He is so sweet and treats me like a goddess. He means the world to me and I haven't been this happy in a LONG time. Wes is doing better and I am goin to see him in 2 weeks over spring break. CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!! Going out tonight with Chanci and Joey. Gonna either go bowling or something else. Got a car wash for Wes April 2 at Adavanced Auto on South Oats in Dothan. Everyone come out and support this worthy cause. Gotta go to work today though I am posed to be off. DO NOT WANNA GO!!!! Anyways gotta go ttyl!!!

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[27 Feb 2005|05:26pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

Went to Montgomery today with the family. Bought a shirt, a pair of pants, some socks, and a trash can cause I broke my other one. Talked to Wes for the first time in what seems like forever. Gonna try to go up there during spring break. Grades are slipping again and the parental units are freakin out. Gonna spend my summer in my room. Anyways that's it! O yea and I Love Joey!!!!!!!

We'll never fall apart

[23 Feb 2005|04:28pm]
[ mood | Wierded out ]

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 15 people about this game.
Joey is the one that you love.
Wes is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Brittany.
Nicole is the one who knows you very well.
Laura is your lucky star.
Until the day I die is the song that matches with Joey.
Anthem of our dying day is the song for Wes.
Because you loved me is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Check Yes or No is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz
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[21 Feb 2005|04:26pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Well time for yet another entry in my life. Well I am still happily with Joey and as far as I'm concerned I will be for a long time. Talked to Wes the other day and his cancer is back. The docs dont seem worried bout it though. Went to Science Olympiad competition the other day. Finally after 6 years of tryin I came home with a medal. Ted and I got 3rd in Cell Biology. I almost fell out when they called our number. Still workin at the Old Navy. Got 24.5 hours this week. Spring break is coming up and I am lookin forward to it. Gonna try to rent my aunts condo for 4 days if Wes comes home but if not I will be driving out to Texas for a few days. Gotta see my bubba. O yea Joey's transmission blew in the Mazda the other day. Now he is stuck driving his moms car and drove his dad's truck until someone put a dent in it at school. Anyways I guess that is it.

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Love [16 Feb 2005|11:28pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Well its 2 days after Valentines and it has been an interesting 2 days. Well Monday Valentine's Day was not a good day up until 6:30. I was on my way home from picking up Joey's Valentines present from Wal Mart and I got into my very first car wreck. No one was hurt then but all were really sore. messed up my car but all was good because Joey was there for me. He took me out to eat and brought me a dozen peach roses. He is the sweetest guy ever and I was so totally swept off my feet. I never thought I could feel this way about a guy when Wes and I broke up but I was wrong. He makes me smile and laugh even when times are low.I am so lucky to have found him. Ok well that's it.

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[11 Feb 2005|07:05pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

Well alot has been going on since I last wrote. I hear from Wes almost every night and though the cancer has gotten him down he is as strong as he always been. His spirits are high. He has told me that he wants to be home so badly but he knows he has to fight. Also I have been seein this great guy Joey for the last couple of weeks. He has made me realize how much I love him. Also today coming out of the Junior parkin lot i rubbed my car against the side of this other car and the friend of the person that owned the car told me she talked to the driver and told me i could go. Well I left and I didn't know not to. Well O.D. our H.R.O officer at D.H.S called my house and told me I had to be in Mr. Corbit the asstnt. Principals office monday morning or i was gonna be charged with a hit and run. So I will be in his office first thing. It scared me so bad when he called. But I guess that is about it besides being bored all the time.

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[08 Feb 2005|03:59pm]
[ mood | quixotic ]

Well I haven't been able to update lately but anyways here goes. Went to school today really boring and di nothing as usual. I am so ready for this year to be over. My schedule next year is easy and I am ready to enjoy my senior year. Talked to Wes the other day. He's doin good. He scared me yesterday cause when I was talkin to him the meds he was given gave a seesure(can't spell) while I was on the phone. Very scary. He's ok now!! He should be home within the next month or so. We are havina party for him the day he arrives and I will let everyone know what time the plane arrives and we can all go to the hanger and welcome him back. It's weird, without Wes my life has been full of problems with friends and battles between bands and stupid stuff like that. It's strange how he makes life run more smoothly. You gotta love my Bubba though. Well that's about it!

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